how?

I wasn’t planning this

you weren’t even supposed to matter this much
you were just… there

like any other person
same voice
same face
same everything

so tell me
when did it change

when did “I’ll reply later”
turn into checking my phone for you

when did normal conversations
start staying in my head longer than they should

I try to go back
find the exact moment

but there isn’t one

it’s annoying like that

it just… happened
slow enough that I didn’t notice
fast enough that I can’t undo it

and now you’re everywhere

in the way I think
in the things I notice
in the stupid small pauses in my day

and I hate that I can’t explain it

because if someone asked me
“why them?”

I wouldn’t have an answer

I’d just stand there
thinking

yeah

why you

how did you become
this important