Strings that Sting

Well man not gonna lie.

I feel like I might not be that good of a person to handle a relationship-- not because I'd cheat, or like someone else but I am not even happy with who I am fully.

I am insecure about how I look. I do feel pretty at moments but then again I hate how ordinary I look.

I mean I know that if someone truly likes you-- they wouldn't make you feel excluded or insecure but there would be certain moments when I over analyse every side, every angle.

I look confident, highly nerdy-- in a good way with a bunch of achievements that teenagers often run after. I personally don't even think they are that huge but again you never realise the importantance of something when you have it.

But, besides all of this confident facade-- there is just an insecure child.

So complicated, if U look at it from someone else's lenses--

I think, they would love talking to me initially and the mask of confidence I wear would get them interested in the first place

But--

When they actually dive deep into who I really am. They’d honestly see a bunch of threads overlalled as strings that sting in my heart.